This ones for the guys who tell us not to worry and to trust them … because they’re not like the last one you were with, the one that hurt you. He’s ‘one of the good guys’ and he will never break your heart, or make you wonder why you’re not good enough.
He’s also a liar.
You, were also a liar, but I didn’t expect you to be … so jokes on me I guess?
I know it took some time, but you sat there and got me to open up to you. I don’t open up, that’s not something I do, but silly me … I fell for it, I believed you when you gave me the ‘good guy’ routine. I told you about how the last one hurt me, I told you I’m a closed book. I pre-warned you about all of my flaws I so openly accept and I really thought you were in it with me for the long haul. I think it was the way you looked at me, like I was the best thing you’d ever seen and what a weird twist of fate that bought us together.
You know what I didn’t tell you? I didn’t tell you I checked my phone every fifteen minutes to see if your name had popped up on it, I didn’t tell you that when you left me voice notes not really saying anything at all that I’d be smiling from ear to ear when I listened to them, I didn’t tell you I constantly spoke to my family about you, I’d tell them about how you hadn’t found who you wanted to be yet but that it didn’t bother me, I wanted to help inspire you. There were a lot of things I didn’t tell you because I am just so scared of getting hurt by the small amount of people I choose to really allow to get to know me.
You weren’t my usual type, but you know what? I really started to let you in and the shitty reality is, I didn’t sleep with you so you left. I didn’t give you enough physical attention so you just left, without even doing the ‘good guy’ thing and telling me honestly what was going through your mind.
All of a sudden when I wanted to call you and tell you about my day, I just couldn’t because you no longer wanted to pick up, you no longer wanted to speak to me and I didn’t even know why, but I do now. It didn’t take long to figure out that I’d been replaced.
Do you want to tell me again how you’re one of the good guys? No … I didn’t think so.
So to all girls who read this: In this crappy world of ‘dating’ we have to carefully select who we decide to trust and the harsh reality is sometimes we get it wrong and that’s ok. It’s ok to get hurt, that shows that you’re open to letting people in but it’s scary, I give advice to my friends about getting back out there and constantly reel the line off about ‘but he just wasn’t the one’ but it will never change the fact that your feelings have been hurt and I know that friggin sucks! You’ll date the ‘bad guys’ and the ‘good guys’ you’ll date a lot of frogs .. until you find ‘the right guy’
Ultimately …. lets go girls and get back out there!